HI kathy:
well i also went through situtions like u mentioned... i also thought that i wan't to live more etc etc..
but now i m back in the life with more power and energy ...
Sometimes , God breaks ours pirit to save our soul.
Sometimes , He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes , He sends us pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes , He sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes , He sends us illness so we can take better care of our selves.
Sometimes , He takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything we have.
keep remember these words.... i even did't stand on my own .. i was completely sticked to me bed .. and the ulcer pain u cant imagine to which i went trough ..... but after that now i m playing cricket footbal to my cousins again ...... sometimes good send us illnes to send us toward a good angel like doctor ,... it is wat hapened to me . ........